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I'm a full-time wife and mom of two adorable boys. When I'm not busy trying to keep up with them I enjoy photography, traveling, planning parties and a little bit of reading.

In February of 2008 I was diagnosed with an incurable terminal lung illness, though God promised me a full and complete healing. While we wait for His timing, we're taking it one day at a time, and standing in awe of how God's using all of this for His glory. The tough road we've traveled has given us a new perspective on the fragility of life. Memories are more important to us than ever before. The goal of this blog is to share some of our family life - the ups and downs, the joys and probably some of the pains as well. It's mostly meant as a personal journal of sorts, but you're welcome to share in it. We'd like to take this opportunity to say ...

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Thursday, December 3, 2009

Promises

My brother-in-law and nephew came for a visit on Thanksgiving Eve, and they brought with them the most beautiful rainbow! Here's what it looked like out my front door just after they arrived:


In the Bible, God put a rainbow in the sky as a promise to Noah and all of his descendants (us) that never again will God destroy the entire earth by flood (Genesis 5-8). I have a promise of my own too - regarding my health.

The past couple weeks have been full of emotional highs and lows again. Sometimes the pain's been more than I could handle, and other times I've felt completely "normal." In fact, this whole past couple of years have been full of emotional highs and lows, but this time around I didn't turn to God during the low points. Instead I pulled in and used my own strength to try to get through it, and that wasn't nearly enough. I wanted to throw in the towel because I just couldn't handle it anymore. It isn't that I was deliberately turning my back on God recently, it's just that He wasn't my focus - He wasn't my source of strength. And that rainbow reminded me of His promise to me that "everything will be okay." My focus has begun to shift back where it should be - on Him instead of my situation. I've still had some tough days and some rough nights, but at least I'm starting to lean on Him again like I should have been doing all along. After all, a promise is a promise.

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