I'm a full-time wife and mom of two adorable boys. When I'm not busy trying to keep up with them I enjoy photography, traveling, planning parties and a little bit of reading.

In February of 2008 I was diagnosed with an incurable terminal lung illness, though God promised me a full and complete healing. While we wait for His timing, we're taking it one day at a time, and standing in awe of how God's using all of this for His glory. The tough road we've traveled has given us a new perspective on the fragility of life. Memories are more important to us than ever before. The goal of this blog is to share some of our family life - the ups and downs, the joys and probably some of the pains as well. It's mostly meant as a personal journal of sorts, but you're welcome to share in it. We'd like to take this opportunity to say ...


Friday, April 2, 2010

WHAT i need - WHEN i need

The past several days have been full of emotional highs and lows.  I must be hormonal, or something, because poor Aaron's probably walked into the room at least a dozen times the past 48 hours only to find me crying.  Nothing's really wrong.  It's just that for some reason even small things are hitting me wrong.  This isn't the Julia he knows (or married).  Julia is 90% logical and 10% emotional.  I guess the 10% has just decided to exhibit itself all at once.  Well, today I was reading (in between tear-fests), and my loving God made sure that I read what I needed to hear.

"Happiness is a byproduct of something greater, not an end in itself.  Happiness cannot be pursued and caught, anymore than one can pursue a sunny day, put it in a bottle, and then bring it out on a rainy day to enjoy again.  True happiness comes from a different pursuit - the pursuit of God." (Billy Graham)

"What does your song in the night sound like?  It could be a mournful dirge.  Or a staccato outburst.  Or a stirring song of praise.  But those nights when you can't sleep, when your mind spins out of control, rummaging through the problems and trials of your life, you can slow things down with a song of meditation.  Direct your mind toward God." (Peter Wallace)

"You know what?  God personally cares about the things that worry us.  He cares more about them than we care about them; those things that hang in our minds as nagging, aching, worrisome thoughts. ... He cares.  You are his personal concern." (Charles Swindoll)

.........  WHEN I turn to Him, God always provides me WHAT I need - WHEN I need it the most.

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